Powerlessness
Powerlessness. My life had become unmanageable. I was powerless over alcohol the first time I ever had it. I was such a slob. Yet I continued to ingest it for a decade, not coming to realize I was powerless over it even after I was freshly sober. I admitted I was powerless over it but I didn't fully grasp it for a couple months of being sober. I fully believe and know now that I am powerless over alcohol. I cannot and I do not have to have alcohol. I am free without it!
Like alcohol, I am also powerless over other things in life. Like people. I am powerless over what they do to me. I. cannot control what someone does to me or says to me. I do have power of how I respond. This is freedom. The freedom to choose how to handle a situation. Just like I had the freedom to choose whether I keep on down the road of killing myself or the possibility of someone else by drinking. I struggled to let go of drinking. I've struggled to respond well to being hurt by someone. "Evening, morning, and noon I cry out in distress, and He hears my voice". Psalms 55:17
There comes a point when it's just too much and you have no other choice but to make a choice. If you don't want to a) completely lose yourself b) suffer and be miserable and make others suffer and be miserable c) be a salve to sin or someone else's sin.
I'm thankful to be powerless over alcohol as it has taught me so much. I am growing in many areas of my life and I have no one to thank but God. He is the reason I am here today and not in the pits of hell. Where I am weak, He is strong. ❤
Like alcohol, I am also powerless over other things in life. Like people. I am powerless over what they do to me. I. cannot control what someone does to me or says to me. I do have power of how I respond. This is freedom. The freedom to choose how to handle a situation. Just like I had the freedom to choose whether I keep on down the road of killing myself or the possibility of someone else by drinking. I struggled to let go of drinking. I've struggled to respond well to being hurt by someone. "Evening, morning, and noon I cry out in distress, and He hears my voice". Psalms 55:17
There comes a point when it's just too much and you have no other choice but to make a choice. If you don't want to a) completely lose yourself b) suffer and be miserable and make others suffer and be miserable c) be a salve to sin or someone else's sin.
I'm thankful to be powerless over alcohol as it has taught me so much. I am growing in many areas of my life and I have no one to thank but God. He is the reason I am here today and not in the pits of hell. Where I am weak, He is strong. ❤
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