Sobriety and Pregnancy :)

I have been grateful for my sobriety throughout this whole time but I would like to share how super, super, super grateful I am for my sobriety now that I'm PREGNANT!!! I imagine how much different it would be getting pregnant during my drinking day's and how miserable that would've made the pregnancy experience because I'd be so focused the whole time on not drinking instead of enjoying being pregnant. I'm sure people have done it. I'm sure it's been a good incentive for some to get sober because they found out they were pregnant, and that's great! I'm just personally grateful it's gone in this order for me. It's just another praise to God and gift to share with you all! Look at how many gifts there are in being sober. 

Some may wonder when they read about sobriety posts, "why do they talk about this so much? This is something I do almost every day, not drink. Why can't they?" That's the difference between an addicted, sick mind and a person who clearly does not have the addicted, sick mind. I share the joy of sobriety and talk about it because it was not simple or possible for me to "just stop drinking". It is a celebration to God that he relieved me from the obsession to drink. There are those of who you understand and that is why I continue to talk about it. 

Back to the pregnancy...

I'm so thankful I awake each morning with no desire or thought of drink. Instead I awake with appreciation for my growing stomach and a desire to eat! I love waking up with a clear head, hangover free. I love brewing a cup of coffee and sitting in my reading chair to get in the Word of God. I enjoy not being filled with regret, shame, and the physical sickness of being hungover, or still drunk. I hear the sound of the birds this morning and that is one of my favorite sounds now, once filled with morning regret and shame. The things I once hated, have now turned into some of my favorite things, by becoming sober. More gifts. 

I enjoy praying for my child that is growing inside of me, instead of being on my hands and knees begging for mercy from God on how to quit drinking. I'm grateful God still listened to me from the last begging to him on my hands and knees and he showed me the way to freedom. But I do not miss those desperate, aching, lifeless, depressing moment's. And yet I am thankful for those desperate, aching, lifeless, depressing moment's. That is one of the most surprising part's of sobriety to me, the gratefulness for all the bad moment's I went through during active addiction. 

I am about 14-15 weeks pregnant and we are so excited to meet this little human!!!